Like you, there are days I am happy.. there are days I am angry... there are days when I am sad. I want to recognize these emotions as completely natural for us tribe. You think Engineers are logical, smart and factuals but we are also flaws, we also have insecurities and yearn for love.
This post will be mostly around "emotional-log".
You are not alone in your struggle. But you know that it is worth fighting for it when you see others overcoming much bigger struggle than what you have been complaining about.